After struggling with anorexia for the past five years I decided to enter treatment for the second time. The difference was that this time I wasn’t doing it for anyone else; I was doing it solely for me. For the first time in my life I realized that I wanted to be happy more than I wanted to be thin. The last eight months have been the most trying and rewarding time of my life. I have begun to experience the freedom that recovery brings, the freedom from obsessing over food and calories and weight 24/7. I realized that while controlling my weight wouldn’t change my past, letting go of it would give me a future, and what a beautiful future it will be. One of my favorite quotes by Matt Haig is, “You will one day experience joy that matches this pain.” Through recovery I have started to experience joy that matches the pain that I felt while in the midst of my eating disorder. If you are struggling and you haven’t already done so, please reach out and ask for help. I’ve been where you are, I know what it’s like to think that things can’t get better; I’m here to tell you that they can and they will. Through it all remember that your beautifully broken story matters, and you get to write the next, joy-filled chapter.